Intervention.

I have been watching this show Intervention since it has first aired. It practically inspires me to NEVER do drugs. My father is recovering alcoholic and addict so I know how it feels from the family perspective. I never want to go through that. I feel so deeply for these people and their families. I am trying to put myself in the addicts shoes but it is impossible. My overall point is that I think that this show is a blessing because they provide the help needed for free at all costs and that to me, is amazing. I wish that they could do this for every addict in the world. I know that seems impossible, but I really don't think it is. I think we can save everyone's life one day at a time. The more people come together in this world, the more it will start to become a better world.

Yay for May!

It seems like another beautiful day outside. I love waking up to the sun shining through the window shades. It's almost reassuring to me. Although we need the rain, it is a very gloomy start to the day. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to not be able to see all the wonderful things there are to see in this world and I could not imagine not being able to experience it and I praise those who have the courage to live on with their lives. It is people like that that are, in so many ways, heros to me.

On a different note, I am going to embrace today, forget yesterday, and don't think about what is to come tomorrow.

My Overall Mission.

Okay. So it is another beautiful day and I plan to enjoy it. No one has read my blog yet and I am a little disappointed. I though blogs were a HUGE thing and that a lot of people are interested in them..WTF am I getting myself into?

I want to make myself clear on why I am even writing a blog.

I am writing this blog for every man and woman who have been in abusive relationships. I want to hear these peoples' stories and reflect on it all. I know I am not the only one who has been through this.

COME ON PEOPLE! SPEAK UP!

The first thing that I want to talk about and that I need to talk about is my good friend. She is the same age as me and we were best friends since 4th grade. We stopped being close in 10th grade and just started to hang out again recently. She is a recovering cocaine addict and is in a relationship with a guy who is controlling. He has already hit her once when they were drinking but that is not the point. If he hit her once he is going to do it again and it could be worse the next time. I am so worried about her and I try telling her all the time that his controlling ways are a huge sign and she doesn't seem to see them. I am going to do whatever it takes to get her out but I know I am useless. She is completely sucked in. I know I was...

A little more about myself.

I have decided to tell everyone a little more about myself. I have never wrote a blog before, so I figure what the hell..

I was born in Pennsylvania; I am 18 years old; and moved to Upstate NY when I was 7. I hated it. For the longest time I had a hard time fitting in. I felt bored here..or trapped I guess. I had a couple good friends throughout grade school and one pretty much only my freshman year. I had gone through a couple "boyfriends". Not exactly serious ones until my freshman year of high school. His name I will not mention was much older than I was. He was not in school and worked in the same place I and my mother worked ( I only worked weekends) We were together for a total of 8 months. The first 2 or 3 maybe were amazing. He totally had me fooled. By the 4th month, I was under his total control and lets just say it got bad and skip all the harsh reality. It was abusive and hard. After I had the guts and made the right plan to get out of the relationship, I had no friends. I was not caring about school or how I looked or how I acted. Eventually I just dropped out of high school when I only had one more year to go.

I eventually got my GED and got through all the bullshit. I fell in love with an amazing man who I am still with today, for almost 2 years now, but I have known him since grade school. I now go to college online at University of Phoenix for Health Administration. Things are good and things are better but I will never forget what happened to me. I never want to see someone else go through what I went through.

This is why I am glad I spoke about that on here. It was a big deal in my life and I want to talk to other women/men that this has happened to. I can't be the only one blogging about this right?

Anyway on a happier note, I have a lot of hobbies. I love to write..(cant you tell?) I love to spend time with Peter, I love to dance anytime and anywhere. I love going to the beach and walking the boardwalk. I like to hula hoop =) and want to learn different types of dance. I love animals and have a cat name Chance and he is the best cat in my world. I have 2 nephews; one is 4 and one is 7. I have one older brother who is 32. My father is a recovering alcoholic and my mother and grandmother (who is from Sweden) live with me.

I love poetry and have a lot of books filled with my own. I like to listen to what people have to say and try to help in whatever way I can. I can be stubborn but also very timid. I like being my own person and having my own unique qualities.

I want to hear people's opinions.

Beautiful day

It is once again a beautiful day outside and I spent it with the love of my life.

The sky was as blue as the ocean and the birds were singing away.

I could smell the spring in the air and the gentle breeze that came with it felt amazing.

I don't know if anyone is even reading what I have to say but, I will just keep going.

There is so much in this world that I want to see and learn about. I feel like I am stuck in this town and will never break free. There is family I will probably never meet face to face and will only hear their voices. It's funny to think about actually...having family so far away and never met them before and only have spoken to them on the phone. It blows my mind.

I am attending college; online that is. University of Phoenix, and it is interesting. I am going for my associates degree in Health Administration. I did not want to go away to college just because I felt like it wasn't for me. Not college, just college life.

I know someday I will see the world..

If anyone out there has any good poems they would like to share, PLEASE DO.

There is nothing more that I love to do than write and read poetry. It is a simple passion and hobby of mine.

Express away...

Where do I even start?

Hello world!

I am taking on the online world of blogging. Never quite thought I would get into it but I love to write and want to experience new things. I am 18 years old and live in a small town in the middle of no where in upstate New York. I wish to see the world and write about everything I see. I want to take on challenges and collect all opinions and facts. I want to accomplish so much but cannot seem to break out.

I want to show the world my poetry. My way of words.

So...

Here goes nothin'!

Wish me luck.